Like the equivalent of black out texting, except on LJ

So I woke up intending to write down what was on my mind last night only to find that I'd already written it.

I have no memory of writing the previous entry. Like, none at all.

I briefly wondered if Jesse had written it (it wouldn't be the first time I've asked him to post for me), but we have wildly different writing styles. The writing style of the last entry is perfectly mine.

The only explanation I have is that I'd taken 30 mgs of my Valium, as I'd been unable to sleep for close to 24 hours previously and have been experiencing insomnia all week. Methinks I will cut that down to the recommended 20 mgs of Valium. Like, stat.

I went back and re-edited for grammar, but yikes, it's freaky to not have the slightest recollection of opening the DW window and writing, let alone POSTING, an entire entry. For an ex-blackout drunk, and for having plenty of things that I don't remember concerning my manic episodes, it's....kinda freaky.

I guess I can be reassured that outside of wildly misspelling a ton of words, the entry itself was coherent. Still....yeeks and shivers.

This entry was originally posted at http://quirkytizzy.dreamwidth.org/1078121.html
Hope it's just a thing of the meds.
Maybe you know, PTBS also has its various symptoms of revealing itself... And you're in a situation, actually a chain of events and circumstances, that can make you develop it.
What's PTSB? I googled but it just keeps returning as results for a lawyer group in Wyoming. Did you mean PTSD?